A Break

Hi Friends!

I’m really sorry for canceling so many streams and being so inconsistent this year. I’m trying really hard but I feel a little lost right now and I don’t know why. As I’ve mentioned before, many times, all things are good in my personal life. I just had a really great annual review at my dayjob, boyfriend and cat are happy and healthy. Our cars are running, there’s food in our home, family is doing well. All good check-in things. But I think with the general vibe and all the not great things happening in the US, my mental space is not great. Coupled with all the other things I have to make effort on and some lingering doubt and anxieties about my ambitions and efforts, I’m well overloaded and am lost for direction. I want to fill my cup again and put my mind to rest and order.

Obviously my personal art challenge is also not continuing. I couldn’t keep up that pace since late January, despite me living at my desk on a daily basis. I didn’t last through January with my daily digital pieces, and I couldn’t even figure out a start for my weekly or monthlies. I put a lot of pressure on myself to perform, even when I don’t need to, and that’s probably the problem.

I’m going to take March off after all to recover. No streams for the month, and I’m going to be really casual about page work. I want to reclaim some time for rest where I can, and that’s a big chunk I can do right there. The plan is to return in April, refreshed and ready to go, and that means back to page work. In the meantime, I’ll taking page work very casually.

Being more casual with page work means I’m moving my publishing days for the comics until May. I want these pages to be the best I can create, and that extra month, even if it’s not a priority right now, will really help me get everything set right.

I will not schedule any streams for March. I’ll still be around on BlueSky and in Discord. I’ll be working on some smaller, less demanding parts of my projects and share fun stuff I’m working on there. When I come back in April, I’ll jump right back to where I left off with comics stuff, and I promise to not put on myself more random art projects. I think I’ve reached whatever my limit is and while I’m not happy about having to hem myself in, I can’t move beyond what my brain and my body give me capacity for unless I want to have a breakdown. I do not want to have a breakdown.

So I’m going to take a break now. Reconnect with the things that fill me, try to find my story again, and set myself back into good space. My next blog post will be a check-in and update.

Thank you for sticking with me. If you see my in a chat somewhere, please say hi?